Friday, January 6, 2012

This is the deal...

I should be posting on a few other events that are past due but this is what has been on my mind lately. Most of you who read this blog already know we are expecting.

We are very excited that we are expecting our next addition to our family. I feel baby hungry when I see little babies these days. I always look forward with anticipation to the day when we get to meet the new little addition.

However, pregnancy is a time of refining for me. Refining? Yes refining. Pregnancy hormones have always been tough on me. I feel like not only are the ligaments and muscles being relaxed but so is my brain, my motivation and my ability to cope.

I get the typical morning sickness that many women get and the tiredness that is felt by many in my same position, nothing that isn't par for the course. However, I feel like my ability to cope with it all has been severly compromised. My brain tells me 'ok kerrie this doesn't feel good but you can push thru this, get up and vacumn the living room' . My non-pregnant self more often then not would then get up and push forward. However, my pregnant self more often then not continues to sit and think about all that I need to do but can't seem to pull myself together to do. I then do what many women are good at, I get down on myself and think 'come on kerrie, what is wrong with you, you can do this'

Now this may seem like too much information but I feel the need to get this out there. I then find myself in a position of humility. I then realize my inability to do it all. All the things that I would typically be able to do without much difficulty or thought suddenly feel like mountains in my day. It is in these moments that I find I have to turn to the Lord for help and strength to do very simple things in my day.

These little people we invite into our lives teach us so many things. The whole process teaches me so much about my Father in Heaven and his relationship with me. I am gratiful for all that I learn in these experiences. That said I am also looking forward to hopefully having things level out a bit in the second trimester.


Ali said...

congrats kerrie! What a cute way to make the announcement! Pregnancy is soo hard - keep hanging in there. I vividly remember each day seeming to last forever and those early weeks passing by so slowly, but try to remember they do pass! you will feel normal once again so in the meantime go easy on yourself! :) Can't wait to see your new addition down the road!
p.s. I want to hear the update! are you guys still headed to Florida?

Mallory said...

I hope things level out asap for you. And being pregnant means you gotta step back and let things slide it is just how it is. Congrats again I am so excited for you guys!

Williams Family said...

Congratulations!! We are so excited for your new addition. I echo Ali. Remember this stage is temporary. It is just a stage and a time to take care of the growing child inside you. The Lord has given us this miracle to create life but also made it tough on the body. We can be so hard on ourselves even when we are doing exactly what we should be doing. Like laying on the couch while your body makes a new leg! :) Hang in there!

Laura and crew said...

Aha! I have discovered the first teeny tiny weakness of Kerrie Nygard...pregnancy! Maybe if you think of it as a chipper workout instead of an AMRAP it'll be easier for your brain to handle. Remember, you CAN do this...and if you need to do it with an unvacuumed floor, so be it because clean floor or not, you're awesome and we all love you and you're growing a baby for goodness sake!
P.S. If you are really struggling we just started round 2 of goal group. We'd be happy to have ya join!

The Thackers said...

I like Natalie's advice...lay on the couch while your body makes a new leg!! :-) I'm very excited for you and praying the next eight months go by really quickly!